Dreamy Days in January

Lately the days have been full of clear blue water, sandbars, and popsicles. I keep thinking, "I'm so happy it's summer again!" but then I remember... it's only January?! The other day I was swimming at keikis solo searching for shells and I could see so far in front of me it was incredible! T'he waves are still huge so every time a wave came I'd watch it crash from underwater. It's such a beautiful sight when the wave just curls and the big cloudy explosion that follows. Days like these make me the happiest. Then on the night of the full moon I hiked up to a bunker above Waimea and looked at shooting stars for hours. This is why I love living on an island.

Shooting Stars

As I looked down coming into LA, it looked like Christmas as I watched the twinkling lights. I've missed the fast paced lifestyle. It's crazy that within a matter of hours you can end up in a completely different place. There's something so peaceful about being on a plane so high in the air. I often look at the stars at night. It makes me feel so content for a reason I can't explain. I lay on the street until I see a shooting star every night. I'm so easily excited and so seeing shooting stars brings me the greatest excitement. It so amazing that there is this sky that is constantly changing, but it's the same sky around the world. I wonder who else in the world was looking at the same shooting star as me.

Love the Life you Live

You know what I just realized? If you love life, life will love you right back. A few months ago I couldn't wait for it to be a few months ahead (now) and so I just wished away my days, wasting my limited time on the most beautiful island. Then one day my good friend sternly told me that I seriously need to force myself to just be happy again and eventually I really would be. She made me write ten things to be happy about, strictly every single day. And you know what? It honestly worked. I decided i would do something adventurous and spontaneous every day. And I have loved every moment of my life ever since. And met amazing people who have inspired me and helped me realize that there are soulmates everywhere. And there is not just one person that is perfect for you. You may have always fallen in love with blue eyes but his brown eyes are so deep they make you melt. There are millions of people out there, all with different stories. I encourage you to give everyone a chance and listen to as many people's stories as you can. You never know who could be a soulmate.

Fate and Time on Different Paths

"The worst thing the universe can do is send the love of your life at the wrong time." I knew we were different and I knew it wouldn't last, but I still liked to think it could have happened. 

We had both just gotten out of long relationships and were scared to fall in love again. We needed some time to heal and become whole once more. And we were scared to let someone new into our little worlds all over again, just to risk another casualty. So we kissed and adventured and told ourselves that it was just fun and not to get attached. But we are the people who give all we've got. We're the lovers who get attached no matter how hard we try not to. And we are the ones who get our hearts broken the easiest.
To you,
Even though I know we'll never be, I am so grateful to have met you. You were the sunlight that came after darkness for me. Although you would have never known this, I met you during one of the lowest times in my life; and you gave me a new outlook on life. You have showed me another world. You reminded me that there are amazing people like you still out there. Passionate, respectful, humble, giving, and truly intriguing. Everything you do and everything you say is meaningful and interesting. You always tell me I'm so quiet but I just love to listen to you talk. And the greatest part is that you have no clue how amazing you are. I remember one night you said, "I hope i'm not too boring for you" and I could not believe you even said that. I always think that you'll get bored of me, because you're the complete opposite of boring. The way you speak of others, and become so passionate about things, and crave knowledge makes you so different than anyone I have ever known. You helped me realize what is important in life. Family, friends that will help you grow, and making good memories. We are different but I'd like to become more like you. You make me want to be a better person. You hugged me until all of my broken pieces fit back together and I am so grateful that I finally feel complete again. So even though we'll never be, I am grateful that the universe has brought your beautiful soul into my little world. Even if it is for just a short period of my life. But for now i'm going to grow from you and make memories with you for as long as it'll last. Don't ever forget how special you are. 

Two Souls

There's nothing better than being able to have a conversation with someone about anything and they genuinely care about all the crazy thoughts that go on in your head. I could just lay in the same place for hours getting lost in someone's words. I love talking about nothing and everything. Let's talk about life, and love, and what makes you excited to wake up in the morning. Tell me about your family and your pets and your goofy stories from when you were a kid and had nothing to worry about except what would be in your lunch at school that day. I believe these certain people are brought into our lives when we truly need them. There are some people who can just brighten your soul from simply their presence. There's something about them that is so pure and honest that makes the people they come in contact with fall in love.  

Back on the Island

So, first semester was really hard for me for various reasons and I just wasn't having the best time. I was sort of bummed to come back for winter after having so much fun at home but now I'm here and I'm SO happy. Me and all of my closest friends out here moved into a cute little house off campus and it is so great. We live one block away from the beach. Yesterday was the first day of the semester and I had so many friends in all of my classes. Then after class, me and my friend hitch hiked to sunset and the water was so clear and warm. It felt so good to be in the ocean. Then at night there was a party and me and my friends met so many new people! Then today my only class I had was cancelled so my friends and I went to pounders and laid on a trampoline over the ocean. I don't even realize how lucky I am to do these things every single day and I'm glad I'm happy now and learning to appreciate all that I have. I can already tell this semester is going to be the best and I can't wait!! Cheers to happy days! 

Zzz...

At night my thoughts are... Scattered. Racing. Lively. Curious. Inspired. Yes. Inspired. When it's the middle of the night and no one else is awake, my mind is hyped so much, it's as if i just drank 3 cups of coffee. I hate that it won't stop going and I can't get some peace, but I love it too because I have my best ideas in the wee hours of the night.