Fate and Time on Different Paths

"The worst thing the universe can do is send the love of your life at the wrong time." I knew we were different and I knew it wouldn't last, but I still liked to think it could have happened. 

We had both just gotten out of long relationships and were scared to fall in love again. We needed some time to heal and become whole once more. And we were scared to let someone new into our little worlds all over again, just to risk another casualty. So we kissed and adventured and told ourselves that it was just fun and not to get attached. But we are the people who give all we've got. We're the lovers who get attached no matter how hard we try not to. And we are the ones who get our hearts broken the easiest.
To you,
Even though I know we'll never be, I am so grateful to have met you. You were the sunlight that came after darkness for me. Although you would have never known this, I met you during one of the lowest times in my life; and you gave me a new outlook on life. You have showed me another world. You reminded me that there are amazing people like you still out there. Passionate, respectful, humble, giving, and truly intriguing. Everything you do and everything you say is meaningful and interesting. You always tell me I'm so quiet but I just love to listen to you talk. And the greatest part is that you have no clue how amazing you are. I remember one night you said, "I hope i'm not too boring for you" and I could not believe you even said that. I always think that you'll get bored of me, because you're the complete opposite of boring. The way you speak of others, and become so passionate about things, and crave knowledge makes you so different than anyone I have ever known. You helped me realize what is important in life. Family, friends that will help you grow, and making good memories. We are different but I'd like to become more like you. You make me want to be a better person. You hugged me until all of my broken pieces fit back together and I am so grateful that I finally feel complete again. So even though we'll never be, I am grateful that the universe has brought your beautiful soul into my little world. Even if it is for just a short period of my life. But for now i'm going to grow from you and make memories with you for as long as it'll last. Don't ever forget how special you are. 

Two Souls

There's nothing better than being able to have a conversation with someone about anything and they genuinely care about all the crazy thoughts that go on in your head. I could just lay in the same place for hours getting lost in someone's words. I love talking about nothing and everything. Let's talk about life, and love, and what makes you excited to wake up in the morning. Tell me about your family and your pets and your goofy stories from when you were a kid and had nothing to worry about except what would be in your lunch at school that day. I believe these certain people are brought into our lives when we truly need them. There are some people who can just brighten your soul from simply their presence. There's something about them that is so pure and honest that makes the people they come in contact with fall in love.  

Back on the Island

So, first semester was really hard for me for various reasons and I just wasn't having the best time. I was sort of bummed to come back for winter after having so much fun at home but now I'm here and I'm SO happy. Me and all of my closest friends out here moved into a cute little house off campus and it is so great. We live one block away from the beach. Yesterday was the first day of the semester and I had so many friends in all of my classes. Then after class, me and my friend hitch hiked to sunset and the water was so clear and warm. It felt so good to be in the ocean. Then at night there was a party and me and my friends met so many new people! Then today my only class I had was cancelled so my friends and I went to pounders and laid on a trampoline over the ocean. I don't even realize how lucky I am to do these things every single day and I'm glad I'm happy now and learning to appreciate all that I have. I can already tell this semester is going to be the best and I can't wait!! Cheers to happy days! 

Zzz...

At night my thoughts are... Scattered. Racing. Lively. Curious. Inspired. Yes. Inspired. When it's the middle of the night and no one else is awake, my mind is hyped so much, it's as if i just drank 3 cups of coffee. I hate that it won't stop going and I can't get some peace, but I love it too because I have my best ideas in the wee hours of the night.

Home is Where You Make It

Being home, even just for a few days, has been lovely so far. Just watching the sunset from tstreet gives me the greatest joy. I feel so content there, it's like my second home. Although it doesn't feel the same without Cortni and Nicole and Cort's 4 runner. Tstreet was the meeting place where we would sit for hours every day after school, rain or shine. We would talk to friends and strangers that would come throughout the day, talk about our latest frustrations or love lives, or just sit in silence as we listened to Arctic Monkeys and sipped hot coco. I've missed this simple pleasure but it makes me happy that it will always be there when I come home and continue giving me the greatest nostalgic feeling. As I sat there and heard the train approaching, I automatically lifted my feet up like I always have and made a wish. I smiled as I noticed the action and realized I didn't even think about it before doing it. I've missed hearing the train from my house as I drift to sleep. I'm grateful for all of these small things that bring me joy and I love my little beach town to death.